It’s a jarring fact
but yesterday, we had a good day.
in the day bright with cherry blossoms
and bird -chanting.
Later, we enjoyed a sushi feast
we signed papers at the crematorium
where his body will
The tall, long-faced young woman
in billowing blue blouse
greeted us and took us through the quiet hallway
reverentially and a bit
She gave us water bottles, tissues,
closed the door .
My beloved explained that
we were there to arrange for cremation
that would likely happen within a few months
“Excellent! she said.
To stifle my laughter at that, I couldn’t make
eye contact with him.
Then she explained she was
three weeks into this job.
That explained how she couldn’t allow herself to smile,
when he announced that we were purchasing
a burn and urn.
For over an hour, my Love restrained
his ebullient humor
but when we walked back out,
in the brilliant sunlight
with my heart hurting,
he could only make me